You can’t help but think of it when you hear someone you know pass away. Especially if that someone was still young. And full of potential.
I hardly know him. I only met him a few times. But the outpouring of love for him is enormous. His reputation precedes him. He’s really a great guy. “Too beautiful for this earth,” someone said.
I couldn’t help but reflect on my own life. It’s usually asked: If you only had one month or one year to live, would you do anything differently?
I pondered on that question for a moment. Would I? Honestly, I feel it’s a “no”. Now, before you think I’m leading a perfect life, let me expound on that a bit.
If I were free to dream here, that desire I want is to be married and have kids. But with only a month or a year, that’s not possible. Get married, maybe. But if I were to pass away after that, I wouldn’t want to leave behind a husband and/or a child. If I were to pass away early, I’d want to be single.
For some people, it’s to love more. For some, it’s to travel the world. Those are great. Do that. Pursue those.
As for me, I’ve realized that walking with God actually confronts me with the reality of “death” on a daily basis. You hear it in the Gospel. Christ died for me. It’s in His word – die to yourselves daily and pick up His cross. As a follower of Christ, there must be a readiness to stand up for the truth, even unto death. As a child of God, there is a readiness and eagerness to be called home any time..
I’m not meaning to be morbid. Some people would be quick to say here, “Don’t speak of such things.” But only in the face of darkness can you see the light. Or in loss can you appreciate what you have.
So this is my life. Sometimes I do feel I’m ready to leave any time.. At times, I struggle to be content, that there must be more this world can offer. And yet I know that this life can’t satisfy it: I’m longing for that sweet, tender taste of heaven. To be content yet discontent in this world. To be a stranger in a foreign land.
So let me leave you with Psalm 90:12 –
NIV: “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”
NLT: “Teach us to realize the brevity of life, so that we may grow in wisdom.”
May we all grow in wisdom as we learn to live the life God has graciously given us.